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observe and report [18 Apr 2009|08:53am] i did not like that movie. to break the silence

post wicked upset. [04 Feb 2008|01:30am] you know what? not so sad now. kind of hopeful. if you love me, you will watch this. because there is nothing false about hope. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjXyqcx-mYY 1 anything at all to break the silence

me wicked upset. [03 Feb 2008|10:21pm] like wicked upset. like i want to cry. i watched every pats game this year. every one. i even went to the browns v. pats in foxboro. and wes welker is my favorite. i even legitimately know shit like what a two point conversion is. and don't get me wrong. i love strahan and stuff. he's a cool dude. i really wanted to win the superbowl. i even got all excited when we scored that touchdown with only two minutes left. i clapped really hard. and we lost. do you know when the last time i watched every pats game including the superbowl? 1996. do you know how long it was until i could watch another game? 2007. i guess i'm a curse because they seem to win superbowls when i don't watch and get emotionally invested. i guess i'm not allowed to watch another game until 2018. to break the silence

have i mentioned yet... [02 Feb 2008|11:11pm] ...that you should caucus for obama because he probably smells like cupcakes? i have a dentist appointment on tuesday. i'm a little nervous. i've never had a cavity, but to be fair, i haven't been to a dentist in five years. son, be a dentist (son be a dentist). i mean what if i have cavities between my teeth that i don't see or feel but blemish my perfect 4.0 dental record? you know you obsess too much about being good enough when you start to fret about your impeccable dental records. if i have a cavity, i am going to blame my love of cupcakes. and not obama. dental log: stardate 17589. at moment, flawless dental record is status quo. signing out. -mia to break the silence

if you build it, they will come. [23 Jan 2008|08:46pm] point 1. sometimes i dream about building a theatre. i dream about all of my theatre friends coming and spilling their hearts and souls in a big pool with mine and then painting it all over the walls of some old building in the shapes of masks and curtains and lights. i think about producing shows that we want, directing and designing and acting and singing out of tune all the while. point 2. will someone please direct stop kiss? i want to be callie so bad i could scream. point 3. heath ledger died and i am genuinely upset. he is, scratch that, was, amazing. the headlines on the news this morning scrolled "heath ledger dead" and all i could think was how blunt it all was. that if i was his family that one phrase could not be more blunt. for some reason i feel like died seems so much more pleasant than dead. although, to be fair, my use of pleasant is just as juxtaposed as the rest of it. point 4. my top ten movies of 2007: 1. juno. 2. the darjeeling limited. 3. once. 4. across the universe. 5. the great debaters. 6. transformers. 7. i am legend. 8. gone baby gone. 9. lars and the real girl. 10. knocked up. movies that almost made it: zodiac. hairspray. the simpsons movie. charlie wilson's war. sweeney todd: the demon butcher of fleet street. movies that probably would have made it had i seen them: in the valley of elah. sicko. jesus camp. lions for lambs. the assassination of jesse james by the coward robert ford. live free or die hard. harry potter and the order of the phoenix . michael clayton. atonement. movies that totally disappointed me: fantastic four, spider-man 3, pirates of the caribbean: at world's end. point 5. done. -mia p.s. point 6. hillary clinton is a bitch. 2 anything at all to break the silence

update? [09 Jan 2008|07:14pm] this is my first update in...... almost a year? yeah, that seems about right. so i decided that i don't write enough. or sing enough. and goddammit, i need to pick up my guitar. and my violin. and read a new play. where did my artsy self go? sometimes i feel like applebee's has eaten my entire soul in more ways than one. stupid being broke. stupid not being able to walk away from money. i just want to run away to chicago and then sometimes i think, no, i don't. i want to buy a house with francis and paint the walls and decorate and have babies minus the have babies part because children are annoying and diapers remind me of diapers. but the house thing yes. and its stupid that the housing market looks so appealing when i can't have a house, because i am sure by the time i do want a house it will be a seller's market again. why shouldn't i take advantage of some foreclosed home that some family got kicked out of and buy it cheap because my president is a moron? and speaking of presidents... obama lost new hampshire to cry-y-mc-fakes-a-lot. stupid hillary clinton crying and getting pity from all those women voters who are voting for her solely for her gender. it is an insult to my girly parts that she plays the woman card. i mean seriously, do not downplay the only candidate who has offered any kind of hope to a nation that is swirling away down a river that relentlessly pulls us over our heads. oh... and how dare she pull some lame-ass republican karl rove "the terrorists will attack us again if obama is president." how dare she. she really should go find her foot and stick it in her mouth. i think this is the most i have written since i graduated. have i mentioned how in love with francis i am? okay. good to know. oh chicago...... how i love thee. "the schrutes produce very thirsty babies." -mia 3 anything at all to break the silence

[29 Apr 2007|08:37pm] today was hard. 3 anything at all to break the silence

zoe. [28 Apr 2007|11:18pm] dear zoe. zo-mo. zo-fo. zo. you were a really good fish. and a really good listener. i bought you because i was lonely, and you were a wonderful friend. i hope you liked the big tank i bought you. i hope you liked the little ceramic elephants. they will miss you almost as much as i will. i'm sorry i named you a girl's name even though you were a boy and then didn't correct it when i found out for fear of sending you into an identity crisis. thank you for being so pretty. thank you for reminding me that i just have to keep trying. thank you for waiting until i wasn't lonely anymore to leave me. i love you zo-mo. -mia to break the silence

jail [24 Apr 2007|12:25am] so... in reference to a post i made almost a year ago... i just got a letter in the mail from the district attorney's office, and apparently the dude who stole my checkbook and cashed $700 worth of fraudulent checks was caught and is now in jail for five years after pleading guilty to fraud, forgery, and theft. and i feel kinda bad... because five years is a long time. but it isn't like there was anything i could do. the bank would not reimburse the money if i didn't file a police report. he also took my stomach meds, and i got sick before i could refill them. still, five years is a while. my guess is the police caught him because he was doing it to someone else, stealing their money... they don't often throw first time offenders in jail. so conflicted.... -mia 1 anything at all to break the silence

look at me writing an entry [20 Apr 2007|12:30pm] dude. this is me. writing an entry. someone take a picture. i'm recovering from a case of strep/viral infection that pretty much kicked my ass for two days. even the nurse at the doctor's office rushed me through. on tuesday night at work i got so sick i had to sit in the office with my head on the counter for the last hour of my shift, ever ten minutes mustering enough energy to go see if my tables were done eating. i think everyone thought i was making a big deal out of it, but i seriously couldn't stand up straight. i spend the night yarfing. lots o' fun. francis took my temp in the morning, which rang in at a whopping 103.2, which motivated the doctor's visit. also, why give someone whose glands are swollen to the small walnuts antibiotics the size of horse tranquilizers? let's be serious. who can swallow those? i'm gonna try and work tonight. we'll see how it goes. i'm not contagious anymore, and i feel a bit better, so it should be okay. plus i'm training a new girl, so i can have her do everything for me. now i'm just gonna pray i don't get slammed. -mia 1 anything at all to break the silence

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logan [20 Dec 2006|08:30am] my mom's side of the family celebrated christmas on sunday. my uncle david dressed up like santa and ho ho ho'ed all the way around the house. my 32 little second cousins were wide-eyed and excited that santa had come to visit them in person. my four-year-old cousin logan was the first to reach santa's knee. when santa asked logan if he had been good all year, logan shook his head up and down and replied "uh-huh." "did you make your bed?" santa asked. "no. we bought it in the store." little kids can be cute. to break the silence

[22 Nov 2006|03:51pm] (shake it up) i never loved nobody fully always one foot on the ground and by protecting my heart truly i got lost in the sounds i hear in my mind all these voices i hear in my mind all these words i hear in my mind all this music and it breaks my heart and it breaks my heart and it breaks my heart it breaks my heart and suppose i never met you suppose we never fell in love suppose i never ever let you kiss me so sweet and so soft suppose i never ever saw you suppose we never ever called suppose i kept on singing love songs just to break my own fall just to break my fall just to break my fall break my fall break my fall all my friends say that of course its gonna get better gonna get better better better better better better better better breaks my heart breaks my heart breaks my... 3 anything at all to break the silence

[07 Nov 2006|08:04pm] last night was awful. tonight we will take the house. i love you francis. predictions by mr. foley at 7:00 pm election day. senate pick-ups: pennsylvania ohio rhode island montana virginia missouri total 6 senate seats. house pick-ups: 1 new hampshire 3 connecticut 4 new york 5 pennsylvania 5 ohio 3 indiana 2 kentucky 1 virginia 1 north carolina 3 florida 1 texas 1 kansas 1 nebraska 1 idaho 1 wyoming 1 wisconsin 2 minnesota 2 iowa 2 illinois 2 washington 2 california 1 nevada 1 new mexico 2 colorado 3 arizona total 53 democratic house seats. govenor pick-ups: massachusetts rhode island new york maryland ohio arkansas florida nevada colorado idaho minnesota total 11 govenor mansion turn-over. break a leg democrats. -mia 1 anything at all to break the silence

[12 Sep 2006|03:13pm] i'm remembering what its like to have each step dictated by the tick of a clock. by the beat of a drum. by the direction of the wind. if i commit to the smile on my face, maybe someday it won't be a mask. but i doubt it. maybe someday i won't think where are your curls? 3 anything at all to break the silence

[07 Aug 2006|10:06pm] where the things i really cared about just left along the way. to break the silence

[03 Aug 2006|12:55am] i find it difficult to focus when the blinking cursor pulses at the same beat as my heart. to break the silence

[28 Jul 2006|12:34pm] i think tonight i'll take the long way. 2 anything at all to break the silence

[14 Jul 2006|09:50pm] and all i can think about is grimm's fairy tales' the little mermaid. on the day the prince marries another woman, the little mermaid's sisters cut off all their hair and trade it with the seawitch for a blade. the sisters offer it to the little mermaid, telling her the seawitch will allow her to return to her mermaid form if she kills the prince and his new bride. if she does not complete this burden, she will be gone by sunrise. the little mermaid lingers in the door over their honeymoon bed where the couple slumbers. she kneels beside the prince and slowly kisses his cheek, as she had rehearsed so many times before. beside him the bride stirs, and the little mermaid feels the pain well up inside her chest. she reaches down to the cold dagger and raises the blade to his neck. he exhales softly in his sleep and she pulls herself back to the door frame. she retreats to the deck and stares into the dark sea that had once been her home. she has not married the prince and found true love. she has not sacrificied these two for her own happiness. she hasn't the strength left for either. her part of the the contract has gone unaccomplished. her fate decrees that as the sun rises, she will return to the sea not as a mermaid, but disintegrated into sea foam. she resigns herself to the stern and stares achingly toward the east. the sun pulls itself above the treeline, as it had every day before, and as it did every day after. the beams catch her feet and she feels herself melt onto the beams of the floor. the little mermaid falls into the sea, where her tears had rested only minutes before. every morning she kisses the shore, lingering on the sand as she had in the door frame. letting herself go so that others may simply be. as i stared at the water today, i wanted to become the foam. and i wanted to be gone by sunrise. 2 anything at all to break the silence

[09 Jul 2006|11:45pm] please somebody make it stop. to break the silence

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